in e mOod foR foOd

2007-09-10T18:39:00.000+08:00

can love overcome all things?
can time heal all wounds?

fingers tightly crossed.
never thot i could feel this way - i love you.
lost and crying
scared and trembling
empty and dying

2007-06-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

HELLO LEON ROCKS! hahhaha. bye

2007-06-10T01:32:00.000+08:00

do you really know the person next to you?

found out some really surprising things.
wonder whether i was really blind and oblivious
or did they just hide it really well?
so many sides to so many things.

Friendship.would anyone care to define it?

and you, i dont even know what to say or feel towards you.

citrus-rolls addict

2007-05-23T23:40:00.000+08:00

immature love says i love you because i need you
mature love says i need you because i love you

isnt it hard to differentiate e both? at least to me it is.

we might as well be strangers
are u not even bothered,
do u dont care at all?
yr indifference hurts me.
am i that insignificant,
or have we just drifted too far apart?
maybe im just being my oversensitive self.

- ill be praying for you
pls know ill always try to be there for you
n im sorry for the times i failed
and no, u have not been a bad role model:)

- adrea

2007-04-11T11:51:00.000+08:00

you were right
things unsettled would come back to haunt me
someday.

Fallen - Sarah Mclachlan

Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told
I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
THe past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everythingThat I've held so dear.

Heaven bend to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
One slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

adrea

2007-04-08T23:10:00.000+08:00

if blogs could collect dust, this blog would be doing so and moulding.
been ages since ive blogged.

patience - take that

just hold me close in your arms tonight
dont be too hard on my emotions

ill try to be strong, believe me
im trying to move on
its complicated
but understand me

shine on - Jet

So many times I'd planned
to be much more than who I am
and if I let you down
I will follow you 'round until you understand

Just so you know - Jesse Mccartney

shouldnt see you but i cant move
i cant look away

i dont know how to be fine when im not
cos i dont know how to make to feeling stop

do you want me to hide the feelings
and look the other way

when the stars go blue - the corrs

Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue

stairway to heaven - Led Zeppelin

There's a sign on the wall
but she wants to be sure
Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
In a tree by the brook, there's a songbird who sings,
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.

adrea

2006-10-05T15:45:00.000+08:00

AAARGGGHHHHHHHHH

adrea

2006-08-21T22:18:00.000+08:00

must i really move on
must i really let go

what if i dont want to..

..even when everyone else seems to have

i really don't want it to be
just a passing chapter of my life

i don't want

i just can't.

2006-08-12T19:08:00.000+08:00

CANT YOU DO IT YOURSELF
IF YOU WANT IT THAT SOOOO MUCH

STOP TRYING TO MAKE ME THE IDIOT

IM NOT A TOY
IM NOT A FOOL

DONT MAKE YOURSELF SOUND LIKE THE WISE HEAD
OR LIKE YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN IN-CHARGE
THE "KNOW IT ALL"

COZ YOU ARE NOT

ELLO SA

2006-07-08T13:20:00.000+08:00

there we go again.

im craving for..

sour cream and onion petzel.. adrea intro it to me the other time..
tori-Q chicken sticks.. a usual craving
apple jacks in milk.. long time since i ate..
beef. yoshi's beef... yum.
sth sour.. like sour power or sour skittles..

yeah.. feed me.

-noelle-

2006-07-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

its not the big blows that wipe me out

but the many small little losses that i face

that's pushing me to the edge of the cliff

i really think im gg to fall over

there's sth i need to do.

fast.

2006-06-25T02:55:00.000+08:00

zoe

the fun parts of last week blitzed by. all the parties and late night shoppings movies ktvs..

and so another week has come and gone and i teeter a little bit closer to physical exhaustion.

i wish i could empty my head entirely since i dont even know whats clouding it but there it is. its there

2006-06-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

drowning with endless cries.

that aside.. im down to serious food talk.
the mood for food..
..oh yeah.

after six long hours,
we finally gave in to temptation.
ahh yes.. the temptation.

the almost seemingly innocent mention of
" i feel like eating toriQ" -
- by partner-in-crime adrea,
sparked out the wild irresistable craving.

we fought hard to subdue this thought.

but alas, the crave wave cleaned us out.

cabbed all the way down to bishan junction8
a fare of ten dollars and 30 cents.
just to satisfy that craving.

we ate 4 tori Q chicken sticks with rice,
drank jollybean soyabean. each.
shared fruit jellies, sour cream and onion pretzel, and some haw sticks.

adrea went home right aft tt, and had a stomach-ache.
as for me, i din lose much.. only a sum of fifteen dollars that flew away.

remind us never to do that again.

noelle

2006-06-24T14:45:00.000+08:00

),:
,

,

,
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

noelle

2006-06-23T15:41:00.000+08:00

zoe..

because my mind works in the most random and mysterious ways, i will jot down a few of the floaty things in my head...

i haave a huge, BUT un-finance0able fetish for pretty shoes, and pretty bags and pretty clothes, and pretty jewelley..oh like i didnt know that already...

i do enjoy to stay at home most of my days..
..
i enjoy play even more. in the most normal way possible..

shopping is my favourite sport..

i am prone to bouts of emo.

2006-06-23T09:30:00.000+08:00

its so illogical.
i dont want to fail or not do well..but.
ive been watching matches after matches
sleep
eat
anything but studying properly.
and those morning blues are so shitty that i go to sleep dreading the morning
Every single day.

-adrea-

2006-06-22T18:51:00.000+08:00

i miss everything that was,
that had been.

the things that's lost

and the new things tt i have gained
its not wat i want

i rather the ignorance,
innocence,
purity,

the simplicity

when can we return to the past

its just different

2006-06-20T16:39:00.000+08:00

im tired and worn out.

and after everything
i realise i need You more than ever

i can't do it on my own..

i am weak, You are strong.

let Your spirit rain on me
rain down on me

.

2006-06-20T16:33:00.000+08:00

there's something wrong gg on.
i cant pin point exactly wat,
but it just feels suspiciously...
weird.bad.wrong.

wat exactly am i thinking?
wat exactly am i feeling?
it can't go on like this..

wat exactly do i want.

confusion

subconsciously mistaking one for the other...

but which one is the real one?

sigh.

2006-06-16T23:54:00.000+08:00

This Day And Age - History Is Falling For Science

give me your hand i'll show you where we stand
cuz you're always asking when we'll reach the promise land
and listen girl i don't make promises to anyone
just always know your wish is my command

so cut the rope lets give them another chance
they're not the first ones to fake romance
can't you see apologies bleed from their eyes
but trust is all we need

lets go inside i found the perfect place to hide
someday will never come if we simply say our goodbyes
listen boy i can't live like this another day
no ones real, no one feels, no one stays

so cut the rope lets give them another chance
they're not the first ones to fake romance
can't you see apologies bleed from their eyes
but trust is all we need

and all we need is time tonight we'll touch the sky

addicted to this song..
cant stop hearing it over and over again in my head
and i keep playing it over and over again.

injured.

no one kicked me,
no one tripped me.

its my own fault.
no one to blame..

..but me.

2006-06-15T21:08:00.000+08:00

sigh

im licking abit of dust on this blog..

no one has been here for an awfully long time..

yet, im here.

so much has happened.

so much,
too much,
for barely half of year 2006.

new ideas..
new situations..
new discoveries..
new experiences..

almost like a whole new world..

all thrown at my face

some like a light tick on my cheek
others
slapping me hard

but everything
leaves the redness
the sores

and slowly, so slowing
the pain.

yet i run away,
and tell myself its all ok..

after all, its like i asked for it.

2006-05-05T01:30:00.001+08:00

zoe------------------------

cranked

a bit of cranky
and whole lot of unhappy

2006-05-05T01:30:00.000+08:00

zoe------------------------

cranked

a bit of cranky
and whole lot of unhappy

2006-05-02T11:36:00.000+08:00

zoe

i keep falling asleep..

argh sleep is my enemy and my best friend..

my instinct to head for my bed is so strong..

that no amt of mock determination will wake me up..i just burrow deeper and sleep more..

its already the 2nd week of my summer term and i must really get down to my work. where to start?

2006-04-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

in the world of make believe

uni stress would not exist

hard work would surely pay off

time would not be wasted on sleep

or we wouldnt need to waste time on fatigue

life would be so free;

free from worry, free from danger, free from worldly concerns

where old memories could bot haunt us,
new oerils would not scare us...
and we would always be unafraid.

but then again.

it's only in the world of make believe.
===================zoe-----------------------------------

2006-04-13T19:01:00.000+08:00

-----zoe-----------------------------

let me for once feel that lost sweet touch
in the allness of the universe

Thank You Lord for answering our prayers

2006-03-24T20:13:00.000+08:00

sometimes Your ways i cannot understand.

laugh and the whole world laughs with you.
cry and the whole world would also cry with you.

that's how it really works, doesnt it?
a friend's mood affects yours
a friend's excitement perks you up,

a friend's grief makes you grief.

you feel the pain as well
the desperate want to cheer them up
yet
lost for words.

the world seems to be up side down
no mood, no mood for anything much at all
a happy thought - then subdued by the sadness

so why is this happening?

now
if i can think back
why did God allow this to happen?

yes,
a bigger plan
a plan i don't know what yet,
but i know there's a great plan by Him.

then what if,
what if,
what if...?

what if.

even though sometimes Your ways i cannot understand,
i'll never walk away because
my future's in Your hands.

2006-03-11T22:58:00.000+08:00

leadership

how much am i ready?
people say i've matured; i have grown.
a potential leader i have shown,
serving in many ways

but how much am i ready?
i'm still a kid inside of me
how can i be a leader?
when there's so much that i fear

how much am i ready?
wld time change these things?
i still long for protection, security,
what leader can i be?

am i ready?
to shine for God
and be his reflection
isn't that really, the question?

noelle

2006-03-08T22:25:00.000+08:00

Sunshine, won't you be my mother
Sunshine, come and help me sing
My heart is darker than these oceans
My heart is frozen underneath

We are crooked souls
trying to stay up straight,
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
The shadow proves the sunshine

Two scared little runaways
Hold fast to the break of day light were
The shadow proves the sunshine

Oh Lord, why did you forsake me?
Oh Lord, don't be far away away
Storm clouds gathering beside me
Please Lord, don't look the other way

Let my shadows prove the sunshine

ADREAA

2006-03-01T09:59:00.000+08:00

zoe-------------

ahh..the killer pace is setting in

and i am starting to swim in reports and tests and projects
(or would drown be a better word?)

but we always have to carve out some semblance of normalcy in our lives in order to hang to our sanity..

and i realise i have been eating ice cream everyday. comfort food..whoopee..

cant wait for joanne and my dad to return.. all the housework...

2006-02-16T21:48:00.000+08:00

YES.
this too shall pass.
it always does, doesnt it?
it comes and go, comes and go..

Desperado,
why don't you come to your senses?
You been out ridin' fences for so long now
Oh, you're a hard one
I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin' you
Can hurt you somehow

Now it seems to me,
some fine things Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you can't get

Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
It's hard to tell the night time from the day
You're losin' all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?

Desperado,
why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you,
before it's too late

adreaaa

2006-02-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

...................................zoe....................................................................................................................
some days are sweeter than others; some days maybe less.

but nonetheless, sugar rushes are always good for energy levels...

still, its sat tomorrow. and that;s alwyas a good thing. most of the time :) and im hanjering for something sweet. and fluffy. like meringue. or nousses. or both. creme brulee. tramisu.cupcakes. ice cream..whatever.... if only i had a nice dessrt place here......
i would bake, except that i'm lazy to learn and probably am not good enough.

ah well, too bad for my sweet tooth, it'll just have to wait.

2006-02-03T21:04:00.000+08:00

hmm its been awhile since i was here.
lol

olevel results are coming out soon
im not anxious or nervous or anything lor.
haha
no feeling at all. coz like olevels were more than 2mths ago.
so weird right.
but besides i cant do anything abt it le right
lol
i somewhat think (as ive said to many pple already..)
its gg to be like seeing 4d or toto results.
see whether strike anot!
haha.
i wonder who thinks like me.
oh well.

btw, i got the HIGHEST i repeat HIGHEST in my class for this CHINIESE comprehension.
17/20
clap and rejoice!
crescent the laoshis lim hg and tan yk will be so proud of me.
:P

2006-02-02T10:40:00.000+08:00

zoe------

wow. no one seems to blog anymore. its half dead.

mei : the shirt i havent really seen the whole design so i cannot show how i feel abt it right. but it looks like you arent going to print it is it? actually you can just "DO IT YOUR WAY" make it what you feel like..i think it would be nicer that way...

lovefamilyimaginationlifeisbeautiful...............

adrea!!!you seem so busy bee everyday

2 test on 2 sats..that means i gotta go back to school..

2006-01-24T23:28:00.000+08:00

as mat has proclaim, I'm a CEREAL killer.
a big thank you to cheryl and kiat tat for the frosties and maaLtiDAr for the post strawberry cereal! you guys made my day:)

why do i always get so easily affected?
i wish ive better control of my emotions

ADREA

2006-01-14T14:34:00.000+08:00

don even know y im here.
don feel like typing. haha.

poof.

and something's changed.

the question is what did.

-noelle.

ps: zazoe! your shirt!! tsk cant stand myself. i donno how to design your name. can i just write it in normal words? hehh..
donno whether u like e desigh so far. u saw it wat. but don seem like u liked it. hehh

2006-01-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

one thing i reallly HATE:
disappointment

i have enough crap and nonsense from the rest, and i certainly do not need more from you.

what happended to that friend i had?

there used to be one
but then it became two.

ADREA.

2006-01-07T22:07:00.000+08:00

a not-so-good beginning of the year. hai.

reminder to mysef - remember my aims

happy belated birthday zaza zoee!!

Adrea.

2006-01-06T07:30:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to me

last night was a SURPRISE. the cake was so yummy!
and the bday card..even more touching..
THANK YOU dear..

i woke up to another surprise.
ADREA : i do love surprises.. the cake you baked was so sweet. its the niceest thing to wake up to..
thank you for the effort.:)

mei and leon, the messages were sweet thank you..and thanks noelle for your card also..

2006-01-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

insecurity
possessiveness
selfishness
jealousy

my aim - learn to let go.

adrea.

2006-01-04T18:47:00.000+08:00

---------zoe-------------------------------------

i feel so tired, in every sense of the word.

i may have skipped lots of classes in my first sem
BUT i was on time for my first class of the term

and i felt all sniffly and sleepy all through my QM class..
thank God its the introduction class...

and i have to somehow bring myself to wake up at 7 for my class tomorrow which is less than 13 hrs,

2006-01-02T23:01:00.000+08:00

zoe-----------------------------------------------------------

i know im falling sick - felt it since yesterday when my throat hurts, and been feeling steadily worse since then -
so right now im alternating between feeling feverish, cold, sore throat and not being able to breath out of a stuffed up nose.

and now i will retreat to my real blankies..am going to get some rest-and-recuperate sleep, and hope that i will be one fine specimen when i wake up.

2006-01-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

---------zoe------------------------------------------

i dont really want to grow up.
i think i've grown up way too fast, and with that comes the whole barrage of responsibilities that being a young adult entails.
i think responsibilities are healthy, but sometimes just so
draining, so tiring, so sapping.

i want to laugh louder, scream sharper, smile wider,
run swifter, talk faster, think quicker, live harder.

isnt it odd im thinking so much considering life is treating me pretty good,
but i guess we have our little thinking moments..

especially when its 5 days to my 21

2005-12-28T11:53:00.000+08:00

boo!

haha scared anyone?
i bet not. less and less pple are getting frightened nowadays.

can't believe it. in less than one week schl starts!
a new schl for me.
new friends too maybe.
can't believe it. next year, i won't be going to crescent.
the familiar surroundings..
not my schl le!

hahaha. ok. haf to go le..
merry belated christmas!
and a happy be-early new year!

adrea or noelle or zoe

2005-12-26T12:45:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS one and all!

take a look at some pictures! hehe.
http://share.shutterfly.com/action/welcome?sid=2Acs3LZi0aMXMQ&notag=1

random thoughts:
seven deadly sins is a RA game!
when you see someone you haven seen in ages - like 2 years, change becomes crystal clear
chocolates makes you kinky and you cant sleep after eating them!
i love christmas cards
the best presents doesnt comes in boxes.

adrea.

2005-12-22T23:17:00.000+08:00

a nice lazy wet thursday...
lazed around at home till 3 plus..reading and writing cards while its raining outside.it just have such a nice lazy shuang effect on me:)
met alf at btp to pass her xmaspresent after she cut her hair.hehe i like e back of her hair! then she accompanied me to town to hang ard till i meet cin and jamie at 7. and yes. i finally got jamie's prez!
perhaps love was not nice..it was only cos of takeshi!
walked back from the mrt w jamie..its really such a nice weather to walk and think random thoughts.or better still, dont think at all and enjoy the weather..
it was slightly drizzling..it was cooling and hazy from the after-rain effects.
its one of the few days the weather can make me happy:)

ADREA

2005-12-22T13:49:00.000+08:00

------------zoe---------------------------------------------------

thursday,partly cloudy
showers in western part of singapore
temperature between 21 degress to 29degrees.

i wanna hide myself in the coziness of my home..............

2005-12-21T23:47:00.000+08:00

christmas dinner with JAM!
really such a loong times since i met up w them..
we went swensens suntec to eat
and ofkos i had my desert frosted chocolate malt!
then mat gave me this huuge big box full of chocolates and biscuits for xmas present!
she just want me to put on weight la!hahaha.
and i lovee the purple case from laos from jiadi!wheeee.
and when they heard i never ate ah ballings aka tang yuan before, we headed down to chinatown!
ate cheese knackers and tang yuan!!!
super duper delicious!
our 2nd desertS!

we are too cool for town alrdy.hahhaha.chinatown, here we come!

wheeee. i love hanging out with JAM!!!:):):)

ADREA

2005-12-21T19:38:00.000+08:00

choices.

isn't it easier
if u didn't have a choice
then if things go wrong
you can say
"it wasn't my decision"
you can't say
"i've made a wrong choice"
and you can't
regret.
then pple would say
"i told you the other is better"

but the situation here
was i had a choice.
a choice that
i
had to make.
and i have made the choice.
but was it the
right one?

so many voices
which to hear?
in the end...
i let it decide for me
well not exactly.
i know i chose
the route
myself.

no turning back.
at least,
for three months.
but
was it right?
my choice.

ultimately
its actually great
that we can make
some decisions
ourself.
the freedom.
whether you make the right one
its a different story.

and to change?
its better late
than never.

n o e l l e

2005-12-21T04:12:00.000+08:00

zoe---------------------------------------------------------------

and the supper was. foodgasmic.

hokkien mee, char quay teow at the temporary newton circus
already the 2nd time this week

im exhauasted
happy but tired.. got to know new people also
but its hard that they become as close as my

suashies!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND ONE DAY NOELLE MEI

2005-12-20T11:25:00.000+08:00

dint feel like blogging.but this one's just for the birthday gal! - NOeLLe!!
HApPy sWeEt 16th BiRtHdaY nOeLLEeeee!!!!!
noelle mEoOWs.
adrea grrRAars.
:):):)

they were all nothing but a fantasy.

ADREA!

2005-12-19T16:16:00.000+08:00

zoe.................................................................

oh yes its one of those bleak days.

when eveything is in shades of grey.

the diamal weather isnt exactly boosting my spirits either.

and the wheel goes round and round.........

i dunno why im in my hermity mode again and xmas is just few days away, th new year and.

with the onset of the new term starting i feel my spirits sinkning.
i feel rather sapped of energy

2005-12-17T21:41:00.000+08:00

ANOTHER timsum at crystal jade..- beks treat!
chocolate coated strawberries! - dad paid:)
durian puff at suntec - omg...HEAVENLY.
sour cream and onion pretzel from auntie annie - yuuummmmm.

adrea strikes again.

i hope this feeling fades..

2005-12-16T09:27:00.000+08:00

frustrated

i dont understand!
where can my ezlink card go?!?
searched practically every possible place
still cannot find
like hello noelle teh?!
you just made it like 2 days ago
and you idiot have it missing already.

where can it be?!
i still can remember it was in the pockets of my pants
with my ic and photograph and receipts
ic into e drawer... still there.
photograph into my own drawer... still there.
receipts.. threw away.
.
!!!
cld i have thrown my ezlink card away too??
if so its prolly on e way to e incenerator...
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

help.
pls be somewhere around my hse..
rather than in a rubbish dump somewhere in spore..
arggh.
just like my thumbdrive.
grrrr
stupid noelle teh
RARRRRRRR!

noelle

2005-12-16T00:06:00.000+08:00

MRS DARCY IS LOOKING FOR HER MR DARCY.
ive been PiGGINg out!!! grrrr.
30 bucks crystal jade lunch with liting ONLY. - both of us shld never be allowed to go out together ALONE.hahaha.
stingray,hokkien mee, satay beehoon, nata de coco at CHOMP CHOMP with royston-some far away place
yummy brownie with ice cream at anderson's with cin! -which we ALMOST could get it for freeeeee.
triple weight chocolate cookie from baker's boy - cin's treat!

adreeeaaa.

2005-12-15T01:56:00.000+08:00

--------------zoe------------------------------------------------
just showered and OHHHH

i am rubbing my blue blackS - and i repeat BLUEBLACKSSSS

i feel so sore, wounded and abused right now.
with my right arm, left shoulder, left wrist and left hip
BRUISED which are horrendously swollen as well.

ack.ack.

OWWW.

2005-12-13T12:21:00.000+08:00

mumble mumble mumble mumble

how my i suppose to hear la pls.

then u start being pissed off

go ahead

2005-12-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

HaPpY bIrThdAY LiTinG!!!
hehe! our surprise was damn good la!!! and super funny and erm kinky.was held at laureen's place.its so nice to go there again:)and finally e full nerd club was there. kisha, joan, jonathan and nicholas were also part of the surprise.wheee.im so proud of our surprise.want to know more go cin's or jamie's blog.they prob blog about it. im too lazy to say.

bess and cin came for our touch bbq. it was suppose to be seniors farewell.BUT. no seniors came.grrr.tot couldnt finish up the food.but we did! end up it was karen, alf, jamie, mavis, lijia, serena and jas.but ohwells.today is a tiring day but a good day all in all, except for some moments.but i will forget those moments.

yes. i should be happy. be happy, adrea teh!

adreeaaaa....

2005-12-12T20:10:00.000+08:00

change

some undesirable..
some exciting..
some painful..
some splendid..

but there's one change
one POWERFUL change
that i wish to live it out

please please, i dont want a temporary change
i want it forever, everlasting.
keep it going...

only You can help me,
You God.

-noelle-

2005-12-11T13:18:00.000+08:00

adrea
wheeeee. i feel like some greedy pig!
alf had like 70 bucks worth of coupons for some funfair at republic poly so we went there for FREE FOOD! plus jamie had another 10 bucks worth.
so we 3 little pigs pigged out like mad.
eat and eat and eat.
we played some lame games too and won some winnie the pooh stickers!hahah.but we still left quite alot of vouchers, so we decided to da pao home FOOD!hahaha. 70 bucks worth of food! i am so full but happy:) all thanks to alf and her free coupons.

yesterday went to watch holiday on ice. it was fantastic and breath-taking! and we only got to watch it at 10 bucks!
all thanks to alf again:)
oh yes. and a BIG thank you to qibo for the tim sum and ben and jerry's treat:):):)

oh and im toenail-less now. ewww.

2005-12-10T12:26:00.000+08:00

zoe thoughts.................................................................................

i've been having alot of interesting thoughts these days..the kind i used to think abt, chew over...

thoughts that muse over the inherent nature of pple,
the existence of
petty people childish people bitchy people nice people
true nice people (is there really such a thing as a non-bitchy person, really? oh comeeeeonn...REALLY.), ethics, pricipals, values...fleetting thoughts, but nontheless important.

but i giuess i've realised that one of the most important things we learn in life is to face your fear, and to have the bravery and
the generosity to own up to your own deeds.

its human to err but it takes a much better person to admit that he was wrong, and it takes courage and maturity to own up to what has been done.

why is it so hard for us to say

i was wrong. and this is what i did but i know i should
not have done. and i am sorry. lets try to male things better/

on the other side of the coin,
its childish and petty to hide from your deeds,
and instead lash out defensively and shift the blame
when one day
( and we know that day always come)
someone finds out.

in any case, 2 wrongs never make a right.

..what goes around comes around..
we all make mistakes;
the least we can do is to admit the error of our ways.

let's grow up, shall we?

i think its abt time.
way overtime, really.

oh well.

forgive them, for they know not what they do.

2005-12-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

its disappointing.

out of reach,
but not out of my mind
out of sight,
but not out of my heart.

Every time i think of you
i feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way,
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

-bizarre love triangle-

a d r e a

2005-12-08T21:56:00.000+08:00

yes.im still waiting for that someone to come fly me to neverland.

what do I want from You?
what do You want from Me?

a d r e a

2005-12-08T21:16:00.000+08:00

are you avoiding me??

i have no voice left. noelle says i have a sexy voice, but not as sexy as hers. WHATEVER...hahah.

night cycling was tiring but good:) and i HATE LIGHTINGS. i think ill never get over that fear:(

its so nice to just sit at the jetty and watch the day breaks. the sky and the ocean seem so endless. it felt abit like my neverland.

ADREEEAA

2005-12-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CIN!!!
today is a GOOD day:)
went to surprise cin at her house..and she was wearing her garfield pjs! so sexy arh..then we headed down to harbourfront for early dinner. we took e cable car to sentosa to watch muscial fountain.its bee na loong time since i took one, was so fun!!!:) we wanted to watch a muscial but we are all broke, so we watched musical fountain instead.haha. then headed down to e beach to set up a 'surprise' for her.but e 'surprise' was quite a failure..the cake was melting and we couldnt light e candles cos of the wind! haha but it ended up ok. played sparklers at the beach and took 'model' photos.wheeee. loads of fun! then took the cable car back singing christmas songs:) i love the nerd club!:)

adrea

2005-12-06T23:19:00.000+08:00

zoe-----------------------------------------------------

i eat a lot of junk food and it delights me whenever
limited edition varieties of junk food come out.
because a little twist to the good ol' faves cant do us much harm.
and usually they arent too bad too..
so no complains!

my leather strap of my fave while bag broke today.
HAI.

i feel the flu-bug setting in..
achey wheezy sneezy
whatever evil virus it is

2005-12-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

headache..
fever..
sore throat..
flu..
please let me get well by tmr.. - cin's bdae!

adrea

2005-12-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

my all-time favourite word - GrrrAaRRrr!

it sucks big time to lose.
so close yet so far.
so many if onlys.

ADREA

2005-12-04T17:45:00.000+08:00

the five days of The Race, combined church camp 30Nov - 4Dec 2005, was amazing.

Made new friends, formed stronger bonds with others, and most importantly - changed by God.

A race that does not stop after these five days, but would last even when we go into the next year, and into many more years ahead.

Thank You, God, who showed me everything i ever needed and wanted.

Thank you, God, for telling me You'll never let me go nor give me up.

Thank You for loving me.

I want to go out, and show Your love to others, as You have showed it to me.

The Race.
Run.Resist.Restore.Rejoice.

-noelle-

2005-12-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

zoe

great relief to be finally done with the exams...
been such a whirlwind trying to cram everything,
sleeping at wierd intervals,
eating too much junk...and!!!

whooooaaa tired..
but i'm so glad they are finally over.

too many thoughts right now to put them
rightly and coherently into words,
but in all - relieved.

holidays! here i come..

2005-12-01T01:53:00.000+08:00

z o e ----------------------------------------------------------

ok, it's officially 1.56am on 1st Dec.

which means 30 hours and 4 mins before
my accounting finals officially start

i am officially freaking out big time

overcaffeinated, sugarloaded, verysleeplacked

driving myself crazy over bonds and cash flows
... and i thought i was done with calculation in jc

i got all my concepts screwed up again

gorging on chocolates and sweets - somehow thrapeutic

33 hours to freedom -

but where has all my enerygy gone??

----------------------------------------------------------------

2005-11-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

i am a lazy pig

suppose to blog since last sat. but being a lazy pig, i did not. so many (happy) things to tell, but ohwells, im a lazy pig! so if anyone wants to know, just ask me straight. haha.

my aims:
learn to be a playmaker, and be one!
dont be so dao. ( next time say hi)

im going to be busy busy busy untill 4th dec.church camp.training.asian schools.gRrAr.

why do you,'till now, still affect me?
just a single sentence, you turn my world upside down
to think about it or push it away?
im tired thinking about it.

adrea

2005-11-29T21:09:00.000+08:00

z o e a g a i n

ah, the exam-o-meter.

2 down, 1 to go!

(note: down does not equal well-done, means over, could also mean screwed which is the likelier case)

slowly but painfully the end is in sight.

wheeee.

4 more days till the final nightmare ends.......

2005-11-29T20:51:00.000+08:00

z o e

my sweet tooth has returned
with a vengence midst-of-exams-week.

sugarloaded rabbit sweets,
sugarrolls, chocettes, guylian..
and now im continually munching on garlic chips.

what is with the munchies.

2005-11-29T20:32:00.000+08:00

it takes ~~two~~ three.

2005-11-26T18:11:00.000+08:00

z o e

going down the sleepy road is,
honestly, the road of no return.

i've been sleeping so much!
14 hours the other day!
and 6 naps in a DAY
BEAT THAT! HAH..
okay actuallu alot of people can probably beat that.
but you know me;im the early bird!

There;s a bunch of stuff i
should be doing.
LIKE a lot of studying and studying
ARGH
but this just goes to show how my
priorities lie.
for now at least.

2005-11-25T22:12:00.000+08:00

waves of emotions
i was/am...
happy
excited
shocked
feeling cheated
tired
sad
confused
angry
resentful
sian
nervous
scared
like what the hell....
i dont know what to think
or what to feel.
maybe its just post-trip syndrome???
i doubt so..
mr josef tan treated us high tea at swiss hotel today. THANK YOU!:)
it was good catching up and he really crack us up man.
we helped abit with the prep for sec 4 prom.
whee. it was fun!!!!
i want to be sec 4 again!
i want to see noelle in her HOT prom dress and boots! hehehe.

u make me confuse.
adrea

2005-11-25T14:38:00.000+08:00

z o e

stuck at home
trying to wash econs 101
into my head
somehow there seems to be a leak

what would i do without
without you ?

hols are only a week away
dreading the start of sem
when xmas isnt even here

*ponders*

2005-11-25T00:15:00.000+08:00

yess. im back! ocip thailand was..
unbelievable
undescribable
an experience of a lifetime!
i miss ocip! grp3! a9 + 1!!! :) :):)
i want to talk about every single thing. but it can go on forever.

did i missed you?

a d r e a

2005-11-20T20:26:00.000+08:00

Kinder Bueno
- its currently what im eating now..(:

just had dinner and watched HP with the family at cine..
dad totally didnt understand the show
and i had to EXPLAIn to him
THEY are getting a drum set
so cool right..
hmm..i cant seem to know what i
want for my 21st..sheesh..

im more excited than her for her prom
feels like 16 all over again
shopping for dresses
shoes, fitting rooms,
make up, hair, high heels
stapless bras..

maybe i could gate crash

z o e

2005-11-19T21:41:00.000+08:00

o levels are OVER!
haha.. not that must relieved.
(oh no, it means that i wasnt studying hard enough? oops)
haha.. no lar. i KNOW i studied hard.
but coz i relaxed too.. keep gg to mlg crescent website to post lame stuff.. and keep playing games from neopets (donno y im so outdated.) and mousebreaker.com.. lol.
not to forget... FREECELL. haha..
tmr gg to watch hp. heh..

thanks zazoe! for yesterday.. had fun (including the looooonnnngggg taxi wait but in e end took bus. hahaha)

-noelle-

2005-11-18T15:58:00.000+08:00

the exams are coming..

believe it or not the finals are 40% for my MOST DREADED subject
if only it can just be over and done.

mei your big doughnut is finally over right?
how does it feel?

adrea is thailand being kind to you?

shopshopshop
ive been shoping like mad

zoe

2005-11-16T00:06:00.000+08:00

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you;ll get by

If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may ever be so near

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smil

[natkingcole.smile.]
z o e

2005-11-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

i HATE it when im like that. absolutely hate it. with a CAPITAL H A T E.
i want to stop being like that, but somehow, i cant.

off to thailand.. (to poliferate the sex industry, so karen says)
excited? - nah -

adrea

2005-11-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

life is full of what ifs.

we could kill ourselves and tangle
up our brains in litle knots
lookingbackregrettingfrettingscreaming
abt a zillion-and-one things
we didnt do, could have done,
should have done.
what if i had taken another course of action instead?

but after we are done w wondering,
we all must realize -

life is about what is.

and i guess that is really what matters.z o e

2005-11-14T20:54:00.000+08:00

what's your freaking problem?!?!

being fustrated always make me hungry.
gimme..
black pepper crab
mantous!
lana chocolate cake
bather's aglio alio pasta

a d r e a

2005-11-14T01:44:00.000+08:00

i blogged 3 days ago but somehow my post didnt appear........

and so lately ive been bogged down and all
having my bad days, usually i would have
a relatively fast self recovery mechanisim
and i would just lean towards the happy side

but this time i just wish it would be the same..

i wish you would be quick to forget
quick to forgive
quick to temper and quick to cool down
................................................................
feels like one of the longest weeks of my life.
there are some days which stretch on and on and on.
and on.
and then, nothing.
an abyss of nothingness
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
where is my sunshine after the rain?
frozen rainbows still exits..

z o e

2005-11-12T00:25:00.000+08:00

we had bbq today. and whether it was a sucess, its hard to say haha.
jamie and i went to collect the bbq food so we reached karen's place early
and horrors to horrors! there was NO FIRESTARTER. how to start a fire without e starter!
e stupid bbq place sux. jamie alrdy asked whether they had added e firestarters in, and e person said YES.
and now we found out they didnt!
so we had all e food and stuff but NO FIRE.
and along the way we found out we lacked alot of other stuff and karen had to provide all of it for us.
then lijia said shell dont sell firestarter, so they took cab all e way to simei ntuc to buy.
during then, karen, jamie and i tried burning the charcoal by lighting up cardboards, tissue papers, newspapers till it became like QINGMING JIE. so many ashes flying around!
it was really q pathetic and comical. haha.
and we also overordered the food but luckily our grand senior, dawn, finished up most of it.haha.
then, had to rush home to pack my stuff for tmr. so took cab w alf from changi to clementi. $18.30!!!!!! almost fainted.

:) i wish it could go on forever.

2005-11-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

this might come slightly late - all the best for your o's, noelle!:)
love, ceadrea.

2005-11-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

im worried for you,
but i dont know what to do.
so help me Lord, to help you.

i HATE being blur. i really do:(
and im sorry to be so disappointing.

-adrea-

2005-11-07T12:07:00.000+08:00

im dying

i keep thinking of the times we shared

its so sudden, it just came

im torn im tattered.

a face i gotta keep

on a stage everyday

the past keeps coming

just last week

just 3 days ago

just sat afternoon everything was
perfect, now its gone

how am i going to move on when i keep
thinking of the times

2005-11-05T23:55:00.000+08:00

one more day till PW (op) is over
ten more days till im flying off!

please dont let that be me,
because i dont see what i did 'wrong'.
and please forgive me if i did,
'cos i did it unintentionally.

-adrea-

2005-11-04T19:42:00.000+08:00

decided to really blog today. haha k.
woke up at 615am, went to bathe, then went back to sleep.
woke up at 715am, brushed teeth n packed my bag, then left e hse w zazoe. :)
haha n i was raining so i decided to share w her my raincoat.
but luckything our our neighbour GM's wife gave us a lift 2 dover!
haha saved us e embarrassment of holding e raincoat.
nice zazoe bought me a packet of sweets. thanks! (still owe u yr letter..)
alighted at redhill - still raining. darn. raincoated all e way 2 schl BY MYSELF. lol...
8.30: studied ss - education in class, then population
1030: chienru, yingjia and wanling came to schl. haha.. then helped chienru w a little little bit of amaths b4 she went 4 consultation.
aft tt helped yingjia w some physics qns. but donno some myself :(
ok... nearing 1pm e time.. quickly ate lunch at canteen then went to library 4 english consultation w yingjia n wanling..
till 3oclock.. blah blah me n yingjia went 2 dentist to wait 4 wanling 2 finish then go mobil. studied aging population then.
went 2 mobil ate tau sa pau.. came back 2 class and read english compre.
430, geog consultation w steffi, chuling, yingjia,wanling, genesis n beejuan. till 545. haha learnt far more than .ahem..
aft tt cont. english compre, finished it up. then left for home sweet home at 6.

in conclusion, day was kinda good. haha (eg: scaring tt yingjia in e toilet) .. n CLASS IS SO MUCH MORE CONDUCIVE THAN LIBRARY. oh yea.. :P too bad realised abit too late la har.
so it was great except for that small irritation. pissed me off, really. how RUDE or watever.. but like i said, it was a small irritation. so shldnt i not care? not tt u are so significant right. tskk. i mean it - insignificant.

-noelle-
subjects i din touch today: chem, lit and emaths. well, not yet. :P:P

2005-11-04T11:31:00.000+08:00

Um diddle diddle diddle um diddle ay
Um diddle diddle diddle um diddle ay
Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!
Even though the sound of it Is something quite atrocious
If you say it loud enough
You'll always sound precocious
Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!

-extract from Mary Poppins-

a busy week for me.

quizes,projects,presentations,
deadlines and MORE deadlines

as noelle quotes

as dead as a duck,

dead causes LINES
wrinkles on the face
DEADLINES

---zoe---

2005-11-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

I've got a wound that doesn't heal,
Burning out again,
I've not sure which of me is real,
And I'm alone again,
Burning out again.

the best way to cheer yourself up,
is to cheer someone else up.

you make me confuse,you know.

-adrea-

2005-11-01T19:50:00.000+08:00

i need ice

alot alot of ice
extremely cooling ice
fill my face neck hands

and feet.
meowwwww

help

its affecting my study mood. grrr.

-noelle-

2005-11-01T19:49:00.000+08:00

ouch ouch
so pain
i want to cry already
ouch
:(

-noelle-

2005-10-30T15:10:00.000+08:00

time blocks for olevel preparation (2)

3.15 - 4.00 = Oganic Chem chp 27 n 28 wall-notes
4.00 - 4.50 = Study geog/do one qn from other schl prelim paper
4.50 - 5.00 = timelag
5.00 - 6.30 =Emaths paper 2 (any schl)

yesterday i din complete my tasks. :(
so today, i shall succeed.

main focus: God
don't ever, ever forget God.
never.

jiayou!
-noelle-

2005-10-29T17:13:00.000+08:00

im so going to regret...arghh.
i guess its too late now :(

-not noelle nor zoe-

2005-10-29T14:03:00.000+08:00

calvin and hobbes. test puzzle